Blessings

Yesterday I was on my way to a doctor appointment alone which, as a mom doesn’t happen very often. As I was driving in silence a wonderful thought was brought to mind and I feel very strongly that I needed to write this down for my kids and anyone else that it might help.

During the course of starting a family Steve and I have lost 6 babies. We lost 2 before having Tyson, 2 before Parker, & 2 before Chloe. All but 1 of these miscarriages and 1 demise were during the second trimester up to 20 weeks. I of course had my struggles with the fact that my body was not able to carry these babies full term but I was always given the strength from my Heavenly Father that I would be okay and that I would be reunited with these precious children again.

All of our kids have been delivered by c-section and after Chloe was born my doctor felt that my body would still be strong enough to carry another child without bringing harm to myself or the baby. Well when Steve and I decided to add to our family again we just had planned on having 2 miscarriages because that seemed to be the pattern. When I found out I was pregnant Steve and I kept it to ourselves and then told family so they could keep us in their prayers. I had been praying during the first part of that pregnancy that I would not start showing until we could find out what we were having. I felt that I would be more comfortable letting people know that we were pregnant after that 20 week mark. My prayers were answered, It was time to go to the ultrasound and we gave the kids quite the surprise, they were having a baby brother. That ultrasound was on December 20th 2011, by Christmas I had gone from not showing to full on pregnant.

The day after Christmas Steve and I were in a car accident that totaled our car. I was admitted to the hospital overnight to monitor the baby and again we were blessed with a continued healthy pregnancy.

I did have a few minor day stays and 1 other overnight stay in the hospital for monitoring and then on April 24th Zander came into our lives. After he had been delivered my doctor let me know that she felt it was in my best interest to have my tubes tied because my uterus was so thin. I had been praying for several months that if that was the feeling of my doctor that I would be able to feel comforted that it was the right decision. I was so grateful to feel, again, the love of my Heavenly Father in that moment of decision that it was okay and it needed to be done to keep me safe and healthy for myself and my family.

Now for the thought that came to mind yesterday. I strongly feel that if I was to have had 1 or 2 more miscarriages that it could have thinned out my uterus which could have been very detrimental with the birth of Zander. I know that Heavenly Father is watching over us every minute of every day and I feel so blessed to have 4 beautiful kids here on earth and 6 more waiting in Heaven. I am so thankful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and that I have a testimony of eternal life and forever families.